Ah, Cherished Euphemisms

Secret Agent Man speaketh thusly:

At long last some word… The key phrase is “put something together”–this means: put together an offer!! I don’t have any more info than this, my dear, but it is looking good!! Enjoy the weekend, and we’ll talk more next week when I have more information.

All best, [S.A.M.]

From the Editor:

“As for [NOVEL TITLE: No use telling you what it is, the evil woman is going to change it, I can feel it], it still needs work, but I like it all the more and [TadMack] has much improved it. I’d like to discuss it …at our weekly meeting next week and see if we can put something together.

So, ladies and gentleman, all three of you who read this blog: it seems as if, at long last, two years after my graduate thesis, I am going to receive my first wee pay toward chipping away at my massive student debt. It seems, at some point, I may just sell a book.

All right. It’s late. I am out of squee, I am out of bounce; I’m just not as excited about this as I could be. Why? Because I was squeeing, bouncing, excited about this last November. Tonight? Think I’ll just see if I can “put something together” about it tomorrow. Or not… Really, I’m sure that once I think about it (or see a contract, or a direct letter from editor or agent, or finish up the likely LONG laundry list of what’s bloody wrong with the manuscript this time) I’ll be quite, quite glad, but tonight, the ambivalence? Kind of scary.

Are there drugs for this?

I’d better get some sleep…

Banned, Baby: So Long, Farewell, Keep Reading

Technically, this is the end of Banned Books Week, and you may wonder why such a big deal is made of the one week a year where everyone reminds us of that we should honor and strongly support our Constitutional right to read. I will egotistically state that the ALA does this week for me… because I wasn’t allowed to read everything I wanted to read when I was growing up.

Not an unusual lament; parents are the gatekeepers of their children’s reading habits, and my parents were all about nonfiction and “truth.” National Geographic: fine. Amazing Stories: not fine. But, as a high school student (see how long I was obedient?) through my undergraduate years and later as an MFA, I learned over and over again that a.) unvarnished facts don’t necessarily tell all the truth, and b.) fiction doesn’t necessarily contain no element of “the true;” even fairytales have their own truths.

Truth: it’s something we’d all like to think that we have, or know. The truth about everything. It’s also something many parents believe that they must impart to their ‘tweens and teens about the world around them, only young adults, in the way of things, think they know well enough what is true for them… and many years of their adolescence are spent being pulled one way, and pulling back the other. The problem with truth is, you don’t tell it by not speaking it. You don’t tell it by trying to force people to see only your truth. You don’t tell it by squashing it, hiding it, and not trusting it to come to the light.

I don’t want any of my books to be banned. Ever. I don’t want to be a writer whom a parent sees as an enemy to their child, nor can I imagine any author courting the banned bandwagon, nor wanting to be labelled as having “a liberal agenda” — or any agenda to peddle to children. It’s not enjoyable to be put in the place of defending oneself in any case, but to a writer, our books are close to our hearts. It is wrenching to imagine that a parent will teach a child that you — and your books — are the enemy. Thoughts divergent from our own are not our enemies. FEAR — fear of thinking, fear of listening, fear of trusting our kids to formulate their own thoughts and opinions, fear of a too-tolerant moral stance — that’s the enemy. And if parents are teaching kids to fear thoughts… how are they teaching them to listen to themselves and to learn to think?

A parent’s, a school district’s, a teacher’s or a librarian’s trusting a child to read intelligently, to be discerning and personally opinionated is a gift to that child. It teaches them that adults don’t think they’re so stupid that they must be protected, at all costs, from growing up. I know that’s not the message my parents meant to send to me. They were, after all, trying to preserve my soul , and I thank them for the love. Perhaps someday I, too, will so deeply want to protect someone’s mind. But I believe that there are other ways to go about it… ways that involve reading widely and discussing openly. Ways that involve parental bravery and hours of time, hours spent discussing what’s right with something instead of what’s wrong.

Idealistic? Probably. Well-meaning but frightened adults exist. But even they can learn and grow and change. It’s still a dream worth keeping.

Call it a new American dream – freedom of mind for every mind.
Thanks for the reminder, Banned Book Week. See you again next year.